tales by the unexpected

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Categorie: cyberpunk/dystopian

How my view on society came to be

I know i have a very dystopian view on society. I had it since i was 16, since i started to think over my life up until then. You might think that it is pessimistic, that it is grounded in a dark view of society. I rather see it in an honest view of society, because i don’t like to be told how to think, or buy by society

Don’t get me wrong. I tried to belong. I tried to be a healthy member of society. I looked at my peers and saw what interested them. I tried to emulate them, be more like them. I was a blank slate once.

Most of the things I picked up came from emulating others… otherwise I would still be that blank slate. I learned and stole mannerisms and ideas and clothing styles with my eyes, from people i looked up to.

The first people i looked up to, was my sisters, so I tried to be with them as much as possible, tried to see and hear what interested them. It was the 90’s and boysbands didn’t interest me much, although I still like the occassional song. Backstreet back for example. They were into heavy thumping music, with a very repetitive rhytm. Hardcore. Cd’s by thunderdome were played regularly in their room. I liked the ones with the funny texts, happy hardcore.

I tried to emulate them well into my teens when I was the only “gabber” as they called people who were dressed like me. Skaters were the opposite group. Long hair, to my short hair, baggy trousers almost showing their complete boxers, to my “tight” jeans.

I switched over… when that fad was over and i was relentlesly ridiculed for my long hair.

Everything changed for me, when I watched the matrix. Still one of my favourite movies. It,must have been in me the whole time already. My parents divorce must have been played a big role as well, as it made me a loner as well. I, as I have said before, was one of the few with divorced parents. The brainwashing by my mom starting to lose its grip.

I moved the matrix. I don’t think there is a documentary in the world about the matrix in english that i haven’t watched. I started to,read philosophy, started to love the brain-in-a-vat-theory, as i now love the simulation-theory.

I loved philosophy, eventually also started reading psychology and became more me. Became less like everyone else. I was the weird kid, in a long black coat. I wasn’t gothic. I was a loner. I wasn’t and didn’t try to be anymore, like anyone else.

i started to watch clips like “money is debt” on YouTube and started to realise that society isn’t a Utopia to live in, even more so, when you see that it isn’t a Utopia. Even more so, when you have given up on ever belonging inside the big crowd, like i once wanted.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m not a dull, pessimistic person to live with. I just accepted me more, accepted how society works more. I still don’t like society, but if i were to be angry all the time, i would become the hermit again i once was.


I define as a Cyberpunk myself. I was previously interested in Steampunk, as I loved the aesthetic of the whole steampunk movement, and I love the thinking behind it, that we as a society throw away to much and nothing is made durable anymore. I still adhere to that last idea though. I still think that we as a society throw away to much. Look at a statement made by Nokia ages ago, that cellphones are made to be thrown away every 5 years, that they don’t last any longer. Or Moore’s law, that a computer is renewed every 18 months, so there are people, gamers especially, that buy new sets of computer parts every 18 months, to be able to brag about the latest new gadget.

I love the aesthetic of the cyberpunk movement as well. To live and breathe with computers. To be able to automate half of the things you do in the house, by programming and making the electronics yourself. I love gadgets and computers. I really, really wanted to learn how to program and my love for domotica was ignited once I visited the house of the future so many years ago here in Belgium. There I saw new technology, things I would never own in my life at home, because I grew up rather poor, but now as an adult (almost 30…pffft), I can buy and make them myself.

I would rather program them myself, for one reason: so I don’t have to listen to what a factory tells me to do. If they upgrade the shit and want me to upgrade with it. Now I can decide myself what I’m going to do, and how I’m going to upgrade and what I want my stuff to do, and I know what’s in the code as well. Nobody is going to be coding something else in my stuff, no camera is going to spy on me.

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